Unwanting to stay awake for the thoughts that one can.
I wish i could decide which is worse.
So I stall and try not to think and loose myself in someone elses life.
if even for 1/2 an hour at a time.
to laugh when they laugh.
to cry when they cry.
But the laughter never lingers.
and the tears leave stains.
For when the lights dim.
and the curtain closes.
The joy flees from you as your own life asserts.
but the sorrows not your own linger and re-enforces your own.