June 25th, 2002



Thank you to everyone who answered the quiz i put up on sunday.

At one point I was asked whether it would be a good idea to do such a thing.

I honestly don't know. I guess I could chalk it up to it being a cry for attention.

but i think its more that I honestly worry about how others see me.

I'm more concerned with others image of me then my own self-image.

why? cause my self image sucks. i know this. As does probably most of you which was reflected in some of the answes I got. :)

So instead of trying to fix the self-image i try to concentrate on how others see me and go with that.
Of course ths probably seams backwards to alot of people.

But here is my reason. Most of my friends have known me for about 2-3 years.

Outside of a group i can count on my hand who have known me for around 6-10 years.

Now i've known myself for going on 26 years. Or if you count from puberty 13-14 years.

Hence my self-image is more ingrained and harder to change.

Oh well. its all just smoke and mirrors in the end i guess.

That and which mask a person wears each day.
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